to go or not to go...

to l:angkawi and p:aya i:ndah w:etland or m:andarin o:riental...l:angkawi tu bulan nove..PIW an hotel tu next week wth the same date. langkawi tu (utk meeting other agency)serious malas nak pergi bcoz 'not that important..no issues' and aku tak ckp pun kat big boss that im not going tp immediate boss dah tau la dan dia tak kisah.dia suruh ckp sendiri ngan big boss..dan berhari2 aku berfikir nak ckp ker taknak..apa yg susah sgt nak ckap..ckap jer la bukak mulut n keluarkan suara kan..tp somehow kali ni mcm berat mulut jer nak ckp mcm tak sedap hati bcoz aku takde very good reason not to go..sebagai cth byk sgt kerja ker...or i've got meeting on that day..bla bla etc etc like other ppl do when reasoning.tp yg best aku dah send feedback to the organizer that im not coming (mind u the expenses semua sendiri..hampeh.kalu pegi mesti dah takde duit nak shopping!!).ee..eee jahat plak rasanya.aku pikir kalu dah hantar borang jwb tu thats it la ive made my decision..so buat aper lagi nak bgtau..but theeennn..aku terpikir KALAU ada surat minit mesyuarat ckp im not coming...then what are u going to answer???!!!ha?ha?sendiri la jawab!takpe la i'll pull together my guts utk bgtau..(aper la itu pun kecut perut!boss ok aper..bukan jenis makan org!)tgk la mcm mana!hehehe.giler kecut peruttt ooo...

citer PIW and hotel plak..my immediate boss suruh ikut dia pegi dgr kolokium la then i said ok..pastu ada announcement M:inggu A:lam S:ekitar peringkat nasional akan launch kat PIW(ans soft-launching of PIW la..sort of relauching for the new management i guess) so everybody can go on that day..i'm always wanted nak pegi sana since before P:ERHILITAN take over the management..tp apa kan daya..tp my boss tu smlm tnya sampai dua kali..'u nak pegi ke PIW?..nnt panas2 la..etc etc'...dalam hati aku..ler aku bukan minah ala-nanti-makeup-akak-cair type!!!'hhhmmm..i said nevermind..maybe next time dlm hati aku entah biler pnya next time aku tak tau ler!!!lagi pun time tu dpt masuk free!(maybe diaorg ada bayaran kot nnt).

then aku citer la kat collegue aku pasal ni..dia gelak2 ajer..pagi tu pegi meeting then boss tnya lagi 'u nak pegi ker PIW tu?'..i said kenapa?...'takdelaaa kalu u nak pegi..i boleh suruh org lain ikut..'..i was like..huh?now im confused..to go or not to go..then aku ringan mulut jawab 'errr..its ok la..i ikut la sbb pegi hotel pun best'..whuaaatt?aku pun tak percaya aku jwb mcm tu..be firm la baby...common la..u have the opportunity to say 'YES i really badly wanna go to PIW!!!i know u dah tak heran ngan M:ASM becoz uve been here long enuff to get bored to this things!!'..arrgghh..so kesimpulannya aku pegi hotel.. :< takpela kolokium dpt ilmu aper..